dum. dum. dum.
AMRAP in 20min.
5 power cleans 100#
10 Toes to bar
15 Wall Balls 14# to 9 ft.
Blah. Wall balls are NOT my forte; I had a few rounds of unbroken sets, but mostly several of dropping the ball and hitting myself in the face. 20 minutes can be a very long time. The trick is just not to think about it and keep moving. God bless Casey for being so patient with me, and Brittany for soothingly coaxing me through it. I am learning that there are prompts that are great for me, such as:
You are doing so good.
Just keep moving.
This is a good pace.
Calm your breathing and begin again.
Rhythm and calm.
You are strong. You can do this.
And ones that are not as well received.
Agh... I freak out. HARDER? FASTER? Are you kidding me? I can't!! I don't want to!!
But Casey found one that was a little softer.
"You're going to have to push a littler harder than you want to these last five minutes."
wimper. I almost cried. and I certainly yelled on the last rounds of cleans. but then. it's done!
10 rounds + 1 clean.
I love and hate crossfit, but I mostly love it. It can be so miserable, but then you push through it and you realize how much you are capable of. You can do things you never thought possible. You are stronger than you ever knew. That is an incredible thing. I say "you" because really YOU if you have done you've experienced this I'm sure of it. If you haven't tried it on for a while then YOU would experience this if you did try.
I find so many parallels for the life of virtue in crossfit. Pursuing virtue is hard. It is contrary to our fallen nature - we prefer to be led by our passions and comforts than reason and right judgement. I know I do any way. It is hard to choose to pray and choose silence when I'd rather watch mindless television or listen to Mumford & Sons or Dramarama yeah! I know what is right of course, but I've always been more of a learning by doing kind of girl. Crossfit is all about doing. I feel it when I make bad choices. I feel it when I make good choices. I feel the result of trying and failing and trying and triumphing. I face my limitations directly. I tangibly experience what it takes to grow and improve. It is a process. a journey. a discipline of life. I love this.