I received a challenge at the beginning of this year. Blind sided, my personal goals for the crossfit games season changed. At first, the thought of trying to qualify through the crossfit open for regionals as an individual was laughable. Literally, I LAUGHED when a teammate and coach said they'd like to see me make it on my own.
Then I set my heart on it. I dared to hope and put it out to the world that I wanted and was aiming for something so bold - top 60 in SoCal.
In making this delcaration, and as we began the open, I surrendered my paralyzing fear of failure.
If I don't make it, so what? I will be better for having tried. I will be better for having put my heart out there and laid it all on the line. At least I will know that I did all that I could, and I will be stronger than ever before. So if I fall flat on my face and finish last in the end of this, but I fought to give my all, to be my all, to not play small or hide. I will be no less glorious than if I finish first.
And presently, I am so thrilled and so humbled by where this journey, and the daring to surrender the fear of failure, has taken me.
It is with great excitement that I give my progress report for my 2012 crossfit specific goals. Only two months into the year I have crossed off 8 goals!! Several of these have been walls I kept running my head into for the past year or more... Hello handstand pushups! I still have so much to improve, but seeing progress is a great encouragement.
I added a few to the list (in red) from my initial goals.
2 Months into 2012 Crossfit Goals:
Shoulder Press 100# (5 more #)
Back Squat 235# (5 more #)
Squat Clean 160#, but if I can power clean it, I'll take that too! (5 more #)
Jerk 155# (10 more #)
400m run 1:10
1 Muscle up on rings
4 Bar Muscle ups
25 hand release pushups
Max pullups 35
Max ringdips 15
Max ringdips 20
Max ringdips 20
Max L sit 45 sec
Max L sit 60 sec
Top 60 in SoCal for the Crossfit Open