It's a very different experience this year:
1) Balance. Breathe. One thing at a time.
I began my approach to this Open with less desperation than last year.
- That's good - it's more balanced.
- That's bad - it's lacking the firey motivation to do EVERY THING necessary to achieve my potential.
2) 13.1 was a serious mental and conditioning challenge.
I thought the snatches would have taken more focus and that the burpees were a filler. But I found the burpees needed some due respect to force myself to go faster than I wanted... and the snatches I should have gone faster than I wanted also... I was not going to fail on the 75# and there was very small chance of failing on the 100#... but I didn't know that, until I felt it.
3) What I did well - I made a really awesome, thoughtful plan. I didn't get upset when I changed the plan mid workout. I smiled and stayed calm through about 95% of it. Cue: www.menalitywod.com. Seriously if you don't follow her on twitter or facebook get on it! Great advice for competing and life.
4) What I could improve - dig deeper!! trust myself that even if it feels like I will not finish if I push harder, I will finish. I will not die. I can do more than I think. Also, I didn't want to. I just didn't want to go faster, dig deeper, push harder ... I wanted to pace it. and I paced myself down to a score I know wasn't representative of what I CAN do.
- You can't get it back. Make it count.
- Don't sell yourself short at any point, aiming for something less than you know you are capable of doing. I aimed big but then when it hurt I set my sights lower than I should have.
- Restructure training to allow myself to be fresh, recovered, and ready for the open wod's with enough time to repeat if needed.
6) New approach, Do what's necessary. There are a lot of other important demands on my attention right now. and at least two other things that I need to give my best to - work and Chris.
I didn't want to do this one twice. I didn't want to even consider it. I wanted to take this season as a test of my training more than my heart for the sport, because my heart is in other places.
But I NEED my heart. I need my passion.
No, this sport isn't my entire life, and I would much rather enjoy my weekend with my dear husband to be, investing in one another, than having the anticipation of the competition still looming over my head.
BUT this is only a SEASON. It's a season I've worked all year toward.
And I wish I would have taken the effort to make 13.1 a stronger start.
I owe it to myself to make it a bigger priority, so I come out of it without any regret.
Even though I don't necessarily FEEL like it.
This is where Chris's support is invaluable.
Even though I would rather save more energy for him and for us than pour it all out on the Open,
it's something he is happy to sacrifice for this time to help me reach a goal I set.
My goals are important to him.
This is a new concept to me.
I've always treated life as though I had to be a loner to get what I need - I could tell other people, and ask for prayer, but in the midst of it, in action, I had to withdraw and do it on my own.
Now I am learning to trust that someone else is on my side and will stay by my side even if it means I have very little to give back for a while.
This is revolutionary. See why I can't help but love him so much :)